The day i got married was the day i died...
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
With work and all,
i've hardly got time to update on my life...
I've been with StarHub for over a month and already it's taking over my life with it's crazy shifts...
I just finished 2 weeks of 4.30pm to 2ams...
next it's the 8am shifts....
I've pimples popping out everywhere and the irregular timings are killing me!!!
The MIL is back...
She's lost so much weight!!!
Maybe being in jail could actually help me.... -_-"
It's nice having her back in a way...
Over the past mth,
the thought of divorce was constant...
with his family all like that and Jason bit by bit reverting to his old self,
it seems almost eminent....
I hate that how i do things must be scrutinized.
I figure..
this is how i want my child brought up.
whether they like it a not, they should do it my way.
Same as i'll do it their way for how they want their child brought up!
I'm sure they don't want me doing the direct opposite of how they want to bring their kid up!
And lately,
Jason is harping on the sex again...
It's getting tiring...
I figure there is nothing wrong with my sex drive except him...
I'd test out that theory if i wouldnt feel guilty.
Sadly, i still have a conscience.
If he needs sex so much,
go to the toilet or just go to geylang!!!
Not as if he has never hugged and kissed a bloody chiina girl before,
might as well complete it and have sex with one too!!
It's not that i dun try to give in to him...
But everytime i open my eyes,
i'd go dry....
All i see in his face is the violence, that knife, the gambling and the theft from me....
It's not something i'd forget in a long time, no matter how nice he tries to be now!
I miss my besties....
Just attended Jaykie's wedding on the 23rd or August at Orchard Hotel..
I'm so proud of her!!
She looked gorgeous!!!!
Went up to their suite after dinner for after party drinks with Leo & Stephanie =)
Since then, haven met up with my darlings...
Jaykie's back to China with Clement,
Leo went back to Surabaya,
although he just came back, haven had the time to see him..
And stephanie has been busy with YZ...
Haven had time for lunch with Sarah too...
Miss them!!!!
Also met JunHuang & my "future sis in law"
lolx!!
Had lunch at Tomato Express while catching up on old times before work last Sunday..
Haha!!!
I miss those times...
Hanging in Serangoon Ctrl, the NPCC camp in St Gabriel's, my very first fight, my darling god brothers who gave them the choice of black or white(it's good to have godbros in the police!!), them idiot apologising to me!! HAHAha!!! Me being the center on attention, hanging out and watching movies with an all guy grp!! That really boosted my ego!! Lolx!!
Most importantly was the friends i made back then...
I do miss those times!!
Also attended SanFeng's closing...
Was there with Russell, Justin and Lawrence
The license wasnt renewed so they've gotta close..
But i hear they'll be moving elsewhere =)
Cant wait for their grand opening!!
*and how coincidental..
I've know Justin since i was 14 coz of the NPCC camp. it just so happens that he stays near my grandmother and we just realized our parents are pretty close coz they grew up together. lolx... and we got to know each other thru other means!! how cute is that!! the world is soooo small!!!
Exams are also coming...
haven't even started...
*Stressed*
Psychology of Gambling....
I hardly went for the lecture..
now it's all self study.....
as if i have time to do so with StarHub looming behind me...
Decided to leave my last Casino Management for January...
Dun tink i'll be able to cope with two very lengthy and wordy modules...
Jerome is my son...
i hope they respect that and how i want things done.
I'm sick of quarelling and hearing that's he's surname is Phua..
I know...
I also know that if i'm pushed,
I'll divorce Jason.
I'd say chances of me winning custody now is high!
And i'd change his surname to Low!!!
So quit goin on abt him being Phua!!
It might not be forever!!!
Next week,
i get Jerome to myself =)
I love being with him at my mom's coz my mom will ask me how i want it done and not tell me how she tinks it shld be done.
She knows exactly where she stands as the grandparent and lets me make all impt decisions as jerome's mom.
I'll get to discipline him and teach him as i deem fit with no crazy ppl interferring =)
You have ur own child..
so quit mothering mine..
If you dun have one,
respect how i want him brought up and just stick to your role.
Anyway, time to go pick Jerome up...
update soon with pictures =)
