Princessy Tantrums
Monday, June 09, 2008
I'm feelin' pretty emo-ish & bratty right now..
Feel as if the whole wide world is out to get me..
Feel that if something doesn't go right soon, i'd explode and die!
My handphone is out sitting in some work-lab at Sony Erricsson, enjoying getting rewired up and i'm sitting here whining coz i feel lost without my trustable hand accessory!!
I'm jobless and bein' a lil Princess at home with Jason waiting on me, getting my food and drinks, and givin' me a good body and foot massage before i go to sleep.. and Daddykins topping up my bank account every now and then.. especially after a solid day of retail therapy!
My 22nd is in less then 2months.. i feel old and menopausal!
And i don't know how i'll be celebrating it!!! Leo or Cal says getting the suite @ Sentosa resort is good.. just $400 per night.. Say if i get two nights.. It's 800 bucks!!! $1000 will only cover accommodation and food if i order pizza.. but booze will be a totally new cost...
a bbq's too boring.. clubbing is not my kinda thing.. dinner is too simple..
And after i've decided, who do i call down? Too many different cliques who probably wouldnt get along..
I suddenly feel detached from my friends, my family, my life, the world... Lookin' forward to that Cruise interview on the 3rd week of June.. I'm placing really high hopes on it coz it's something i really wanna do!!! I pray i'll get it!!!
Friends..
Leo supposed to be like one of my best friends...
But i've begin to feel as if a barrier has been erected between us...
I shouldn't have told him that.. But i had too!!!
If it went on, i'd have one huge arss hole burnt into my pocket!!
But now i feel bad telling him...
Sh!t!!
And i know i've been neglecting friends like Sarah and Russ and all..
But i feel as if waking up and getting dressed drains away all the energy i have...
Sometimes i wish i could just stay in bed all day!!!
I need to do something about that!!
Daddykins loves me! I know that..
And i love him too!
But seeing him with his hair in whites, flatly refusing to dye them black anymore...
That feeling sucks..
It's like.. Is that my dad??
Where is the younger man i used to hang out with?
He looked sooo old and tired...
I told him a million and one times i'd rather not have his money..
that he just looks after himself..
But yet he's always there, reading my mind, appearing when i need help..
So what if my dad has the money?
I should work well and give him even more!!!
My next aim!
To start paying for my own mobile line soon!!!
I need some kind of boost..
some happy booster...
need to get away from this emo-ness already!!!
*Slap slap*
wake up Princess!!
Let's go grab a drink!!
